a day of ups and downs

my morning started slow and i was so stiff this morning that getting down the stairs was difficult, fed the cats and made a cup of coffee, and back to bed. i am really tired of this cycle. i was really hoping that i had crossed the hump, so to speak, and could get moving again toward "normal" days.
but then becca needed me to watch antonio while she took ruby to the doctor. antonio is pretty easy in small doses, so i got myself dressed and decided i'd do at least a couple loads of laundry this morning
then i remembered that i had signed up for a webinar on fibromyalgia. i managed to sign in 45 minutes late because i messed up the time zone, but the information that i did get was so exciting for me. i have two new websites to read thru, and one of the web sites is offering classes. i am thrilled. i would have jumped up and down if i'd had the energy. classes and work sheets and perhaps a way to manage this mess of a life.

tonight i am tired and feeling rather lonely.
the ta da list is short today, but it is a list nonetheless
5 loads of laundry!
grocery list is halfway done
two new patterns on the list of wannado
dishes are done
frig is finished

too tired to do much else today, but you know, even that nasty basement is beginning to get turned around and is one less degree of horrible right now

yay me!

one day at a time

I think today was a better day. I am still at a really low energy point, but i did get to sew for more than two hours today. Gabi's dress is together and hanging. Tomorrow, the zipper and hem, I'll be able to mark that one off the list. Her robe is cut and also together, which happened really fast. As soon as Jeremy gets back to me on a finished length... I'll be hemming that and marking it off the list.

So either tonight or tomorrow, I'll cut some things for Liam's Christmas, and maybe a gift for Deanna and Jeremy. We'll see about that one

The ta-da list is actually shorter today. Ebay paper work. Ebay relisting. Joyce picked up the zipper repair. Visited with Becca for a short while. One load of laundry (so far) and a bit of cleaning out the fridge. Unpacked two Avon boxes and sorted that. Most of it was mine so that was not at all difficult!

My shoulders and neck ache. The late afternoon slowdown really hit hard. I'd like nothing better than to go nap. Instead I am hoping to list the Ebay that i didn't do last night, and maybe look for some patterns that would be quick to use for some of the crochet cotton hanging around in my house.

I need to make better notes about where I find things. The pattern I had lost and the found is again in the lost column. I'm sure I'll figure out where it was available.... after all, I did find the pattern for the placemats I had thought were on one site... on another site. Lion brand has the placemats and rug that I'd like to make, as well as a great shawl collar sweater that I'd like to try to make this winter. I Really need to get moving on Antonio's sweater, it's almost time to start the next one. Not to mention Susie's quilt, and Liam's second quilt. Never enough hours in the day.

....and finally moving forward

today was a much better day. even tho it started really slow...... after a sleepless night, i guess starting is always slow. becca stopped by to talk for a while and she more or less wondered why i was up at all. dishes to be done, halloween bins have been in the way long enough.

i am so proud of my self, i really did get quite a bit done. dishes are totally caught up and the bins are beginning to be unpacked and re packed with the halloween that is scattered around the house. by the end of the day, two bins are totally packed.

it seems logical that if i keep working on the decluttering little by little, i'll be finished with it sooner or later.

i did actually make it, not only to the sewing room, but sewing as well! the bodice to Gabi's dress is done, the first of the christmas sewing. it looks great, and while i was tucking little flowers here and there, i got some great inspiration for how to do the skirt. tonight or tomorrow.

tonight is another ebay night, my energy is still very low so this might be a good idea. aching muscles if i climb the stairs and throbbing in my ears if i bend over.
this too shall pass, or so they say

Homer, the Home Savings Lion

a sad day at my house. someone stole something dear to me. not worth much, granted, but something that could not be replaced...
when my daddy did neon for c a grant and sons, he made a sign for a savings and loan here in town, that had a great mascot... Homer, the home savings Lion
and then when my daddy and dan both worked for Scott sign company, they retired the lion and dan talked the boss into giving it to me
i've had it ever since. he has been to Arizona and back with me. he kept me company in my yard in Arizona and has graced my driveway by leaning, altho broken, against my fence here in Madison.
and there he has sat for years, until today
at least they were graceful enough to leave me the face. i can not see the worth of the body, but Homer and the neon are gone.

up until that point, it had been a better day. i am coming out of a five day "fibro crisis". on wednesday, i was too tired and sick to get out of bed. thursday was not much better, and altho i got some work done on friday, saturday was even worse. exhausted and overwhelmed by all the work needing to be done. talking to my sister cheered me up a bit, but it was just not a good day at all. sara came over sunday to do a bit of the house work for me, but i was again too tired and sore to work. this loss of time really plays with my mind
but i had resolved to start the week, at least by monday, able to do "something". anything!
and i did get some work done. cut the "pretty" fabric for Gabi's dress, after finally deciding how to do it. cut a few more triangle blocks for the robbing peter quilt, and finally made it to the post office, mailing 9 movies out of my house and into someone else's

that was when we noticed the lion is missing. andy moved the peice of the face to the back yard, but i have no idea who would have taken the body and neon. i did notice that the other day someone had been messing with the sign, it had been moved a bit. i wish i'd had the foresight to move the sign to a safer place.

so tonight is a fitting that Must work, and then listing ebay. House is on, and Lie to me. i am even hoping that i can get some sewing done late tonight. that would be nice!

I finally did it!

I had lost my password months ago, when I had to delete an email account that had been compromised, but i finally got the password changed and I'm back.
Now, of course, I have to decide where I'd like this blog to go. To what end...

For that matter, to what beginning.

With that thought in mind, I will, indeed, be back

Monday Monday

After spending most of my Sunday going back to bed to read, napping, and then reading some more, it feels good to be more productive as we find ourselves on Monday.

I only have 12 projects that I "need" to get done before the end of the month. Two of them are almost done and maybe with this energy, I'll be able to get several of the others finished. Two baby quilts are ready to be quilted and one more is about half done. Applique takes me so much longer, but i need to stop putting it aside and just work on each project all the way thru, one at a time.

Of course that doesn't really leave the time for painting the kitchen and rearranging the blue room, but some how I'll fit it all in and life will be just fine.

I'm so excited to see some finishing in sight for my projects. yay me!!

....and the truth....

.... and the truth shall set you free.
i've been thinking about that this afternoon. the truth shall set you free. i wonder where that quote comes from. i seems to me that it comes from the bible, but i am not at all sure.

what i am really thinking is that sometimes learning the truth about someone is sometimes much more painful than living with lies. sometimes learning the truth does not at all free you, but creates a different type of bondage.

and the truth shall set you free. funny, i don't remember being tied