no leaf unturned

at least that is the way it feels. i have been going through every drawer and cubby over and over for the past year, and now working on the basement with the same thoughts. every bin of stored things, every holiday and costume bin. every box, every every....
and the things i am finding!
some of the old toys i am keeping for the kids. it's been fun watching antonio explore old transformers and k-nex
but most of the things are going out. trashing what is not worth keeping and the rest is going to good will
i found the bin of quilts that my mom had finished but not quilted out, so my sister and i will split those. also in that bin are a couple of afghans i was wondering what had happened to. i'm not sure what else there is, but i'll save that for going thru another day
and i found the bin of "little" costumes, including the care bears i made the year brett was born. i wonder if anyone will ever use them or if i should just send them along as well. they are a little harder to let go of
but one corner is almost done and i'll be able to turn that whole corner into storage for becca's boxes and block that off as i begin to rearrange the basement.
i'm thinking i want a desk or work space down there, near the book shelves, so i am thinking osme major rearranging is going to be happening soon. i really can't wait. it'll be so much fun having useable space again, not just storeage space.

and my new routines are beginning to set in. after errands today i remembered that it was "desk day" and i had all my reciepts ready to put into my book, paper work ready to catch up on, even took the final exam to my personal finance class, and passed it! i had to look up a few of the answers, but i knew almost all of it without a problem. that felt so good.
cameron's sweater is in the mail and selena's sweater is in my lap waiting for my attention. life is just where i want it to be.

almost
what do you do when someone you love says something that cuts you to the core? do you tell them? how do you tell them? how do you look at them the same way when you feel like everything has changed between you?