Another day of rest

I knew it would be a day of rest, but I was hoping to be well enough to sew.  I was not.  I slept late, I did very little.  I did get outside and enjoy by crocus trying to pop up, and Becca and I did go look at houses for sale in the area, but for the most part, I did nothing at all, 

And yet, I am too exhausted tonight for anything but staring at the computer and wishing some energy to do something with.  Second night in a row that I am too tired to knit. 

This is just too much. 

If you are not happy without me, you will not be happy with me.

Back to Work!

Ahhhh, the decluttering continues.  I think I gave up on the basement totally, and have switched to the second floor. 
The first book shelf to hit my wrath of down sizing was my knitting pattern shelf.  Now, of course, this is much more than just knitting.  The whole scope of needle arts and some painting arts are on this shelf, and it is  much too crowded.  I was able to let go of one full shelf out of the four on this book case, so am feeling really good about that.  Now to make decisions on how to get rid of the books I am not keeping... whether to try and sell them or to just let them go to good will.  I really don't like the good will idea, but it may win out.

After a full day in bed yesterday for my efforts, I promised myself I would only do half as much today.  Again, of course, that didn't happen.  The next shelf to go turned out to be three in one.... beginning to declutter the big shelf, as well as languages, poetry and mythology, and the young adult books that I've been hanging on to "just because".  I was able to sort into piles for the kids for a while, but then I got confused as to which box was which and ended up with piles.  I did end up with one book shelf totally empty and one more than half empty, with only one box of books that I am keeping.  I feel really proud of that one.  Now, they have to leave my house, or at the very least, this room, before I can do any more moving around, because I am out of space to move into. 

I am thinking right now that it will take me about two weeks to do this room, which means my May first deadline is not going to be met,  but it is a self imposed deadline, so it is rather move-able.  I am still pushing.  I know each day I over do means a full day off, and that is hard too.  Maybe if I kept some quiet activities in my bedroom, I would handle the down days a little bit better.

The work in the studio is coming along slow but well also.  I was able to empty one box and one flat bin this month, and I'm only half way thru the month.  Maybe some day I'll have all of this under control.  That would be so nice.

Tomorrow is a sewing day.  Chrissy's quilt is coming along great, but I am almost out of time, and with the doctor on Friday, I'll lost most of that day.... sew sew sew!!

oh my talking bird
tho you know so few words
you're on infinite repeat
like your brain can't keep up with your beat

and you're kept in an open cage
so you're free to leave or stay
sometimes you get confused
like there's a hint i'm trying to give you

the longer your think, the less you know what to do

it's hard to see your way out
when you live in a house in a house
cause you don't realize
that the windows were open the whole time

oh my talking bird
tho your feathers are tattered and furled
i'll love you all your days
till the breath leaves your delicate face

it's all here for as long as you choose to stay
it's all here for as long as you don't fly away

 

‎"Solitude does not mean living apart from others; it means never living apart from one's self." ~ Parker Palmer

Looking out the window today, I find myself dreaming of going away.  The winter dreary is more difficult every year and altho the tornado alley is not a good idea, I find myself wanting more and more to move south and create a new life.
I look at pictures of houses and I've started a list for my "dream house", the desires and must have list.  A great kitchen.  Space for a studio.  A yard that I can plant with herbs and flowers and a kitchen garden. 
Of course the real problem is knowing where to go, and knowing how to accomplish this move with no money to be had.  Even if I was to be able to sell the house, I am not sure I would have enough money to buy a house, and the taxes of not re investing would be very difficult
And still I dream.  Someone to share my dream with.  And a house, in the south, in the sunshine and warmth.  Is that really too much to ask for
Dream board, here I come!!

Snow and more snow

Finally now that winter is almost over, we are getting our winter storms.  The last two have been wet, heavy snows that stuck to the trees and made driving a mess. 

Today’s snow was over 5 inches, and I watched it falling as I set about my morning routine.   well, actually my afternoon routine because I seem to have decided to sleep all morning.

Ebay is doing great again this week and I’m so happy to be getting more of the decluttering done.  I need to be more careful about researching the prices of things that I want to sell, almost sold a valuable book for less than $6.00.  Patterns going for almost $12.  Feels so good to see everything going to a new home.

The goal was to have the basement clean and organized by March first, and I’ve not even got the storage room done yet, but I”ll have to add another room a week to stay on task and try to push harder to make decisions on what to keep and what to let go of. 

So much uncertainty makes the decisions even harder, that is for sure.  I think I’ll just stare at the snow a while longer….