It has been a sad day at my house today. My ex-father-in-law was taking to Hospice late last night and is not expected to make it through the pain much longer. This is good for him, but of course not good for those left behind to fill the void and learn how to move on without him.
Brett has joined his family at Hospice, and is doing what he can to aid and comfort.
Becca is trying to keep busy, keeping the thoughts from her head. Megan, far away, is keeping in touch as she can from Japan.
I'm having a rather rough day with the stress of the season upon me, wishing that I was either further along or well enough to do more sewing. I need to be able to get many more things done, there are several people on my list that I've not even begun to buy for.
It takes rather an act of congress to get into the gift closet and sort the things that are in there. Everything was left out for me to put away so that i could settle and watch tv tonight, and that was just way too much work to do. I feel exhausted, angry and resentful. I need to get things moving in the right direction, not just saying the words, but acutallly meaning what I say and getting things done. I've already realized that I am missing a few item that I've bought and I'm hoping that they were put in the attic during the grand clean up when Sue and Bob were here.
My lungs are doing better, but this has been replaced with an ache in my back and a sharp pain in my chest. It makes doing anything at all uncomfortable and honestly, I'm ready to call it a night and wake up sometime in January.
This morning was spent doing some lists to get some of my Christmas in order, and tonight I hope to finish that and move on to actually getting something done and marked off the list.
I guess it's hard to feel like doing anything at all when the world is on hold around you
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