no leaf unturned

at least that is the way it feels. i have been going through every drawer and cubby over and over for the past year, and now working on the basement with the same thoughts. every bin of stored things, every holiday and costume bin. every box, every every....
and the things i am finding!
some of the old toys i am keeping for the kids. it's been fun watching antonio explore old transformers and k-nex
but most of the things are going out. trashing what is not worth keeping and the rest is going to good will
i found the bin of quilts that my mom had finished but not quilted out, so my sister and i will split those. also in that bin are a couple of afghans i was wondering what had happened to. i'm not sure what else there is, but i'll save that for going thru another day
and i found the bin of "little" costumes, including the care bears i made the year brett was born. i wonder if anyone will ever use them or if i should just send them along as well. they are a little harder to let go of
but one corner is almost done and i'll be able to turn that whole corner into storage for becca's boxes and block that off as i begin to rearrange the basement.
i'm thinking i want a desk or work space down there, near the book shelves, so i am thinking osme major rearranging is going to be happening soon. i really can't wait. it'll be so much fun having useable space again, not just storeage space.

and my new routines are beginning to set in. after errands today i remembered that it was "desk day" and i had all my reciepts ready to put into my book, paper work ready to catch up on, even took the final exam to my personal finance class, and passed it! i had to look up a few of the answers, but i knew almost all of it without a problem. that felt so good.
cameron's sweater is in the mail and selena's sweater is in my lap waiting for my attention. life is just where i want it to be.

almost
what do you do when someone you love says something that cuts you to the core? do you tell them? how do you tell them? how do you look at them the same way when you feel like everything has changed between you?

to sell or not to sell

i met with a realtor yesterday, with less than satifactory results. he made it clear that i needed to get the house clean and clutter free if i want any money out of it. i need to made things look so much better than they do now
and nothing is selling for the house value. most of them are going for $20,000 less than assessed value.
that is not good enough for me. i need more
and because the house on rethke is no longer available, i think waiting is the right thing to do

so another day of working in the basement. several boxes yesterday. tons more today. two huge bags of trash, ready to go out. the front porch is crowded with boxes ready to go to good will. i can't wait to see the end results. i am getting very excited about being able to continue moving forward

one day at a time

snow, snow, snow

i couldn't believe it when i woke up this morning and saw that it was snowing again. it seems to never stop. it will be good for the plants in the spring, to start out with a good water supply. i hope this holds true

so today's tasks were to get the long awaiting christmas boxes packed and ready to mail and that is almost done.
i also went thru several boxes in the basement, getting rid of two boxes completely and repacking several others for a better decision making day. the area already looks so much better!

so tomorrow a realator is going to come talk to me about putting the house on the market. i wonder how i hope this goes. what a hard decision to make. brett will be here and i'm sure that will help me out some.

when i moved into this house i said that i would never move. i feel sad that i've not been able to hold to that

the blizzard of 11

the snow falling was amazing. the city so quiet, even the busses had to stop running. depending on which news source you go by, we got 12 to 15 inches out of this storm. my back door is still drifting shut

i am so glad that i am stable enough to not have to go anywhere, and that becca is here with me. it took her several tries to get the sidewalks cleared. after the city and the school dumped more snow on the sidewalk this afternoon, she finally had to call brett to help her out and get the now snow chunks moved out of the way.

between caring for me, cooking and cleaning, and this storm, becca has had her hands full, that is for sure. i'd be in quite the mess without my kids right now, not sure my days would be so comfortalbe.

i do with i was doing better at sleeping a night again, but that is sure to happen as well.

i'm enjoying the pictures of phillip's new apartment and can't wait to have the time and money to go see florida again for myself. i hope that i'll have time to go see laurie and her wife while i am there. and maybe at some point in time i can reconnect some of these friendships that have fallen by the way, or perhaps at some point i can actually make some new friends.

moving seems to occupy a good part of my thoughts right now. i wonder what it will take to get the house ready to sell, besides renting a storage locker and moving everything out of the house that i can. that really would be a good option for me
i'll leave you with a few snow pictures. the quiet

world is so beautiful.

i hate being sick

almost three days in the hospital and no answers that they can give me. i am tired and just as unable to eat as i was
and now becca is staying with me because no one wants me to be alone and not be able to get what i want
its nice to have company again. there is not much i can do right now but concentrate on getting better. i wonder what direction to and if there is road to go down right now
doesn't seem so

working my way thru my agatha christie books, in order. it's fun to see the writing styles change as she searches for characters and plot lines. interesting how many times she broke the rules with red herrings and misinformation and how, even so, she is one of the most celebrated authors

right now i am working my way thru the tuesday club murders, having just finished the peril at end house
the tuesday club murders are a collection of short stories, where each person in the group takes a turn telling of a mystery and the others in the room try to help solve it. interesting, but not really my sort of book. i'm anxious to get this one over and to move on to the next book.