I'm having a lot of trouble getting my morning and night routines back in place.  I am lucky that I have so much sewing to do that I have an afternoon that pretty much runs itself, but the other two parts of the day, I just don't have that luck.

And now that Dan has to leave much before he thought he would, I am looking at the list of things that still have to be done and feeling rather stressed.

I need to find a storage unit and  start getting things moved, and do so rather quickly.  I'm setting aside the things that need to go to my sister's house, I should be able to take them later in September.  With any luck, some of the work will still get done before Dan leaves and I won't be left with all it to do myself, just as I did my last two moves.  At least this time my children are old enough to help and I've got a few friends that are lending hands.

So the price goes down and the work load goes up.  I need to get ready for this.  Change is in the wind!

I've had no interest in the house for weeks now.  My realtor wants me to lower my price and I guess I'm just not ready to do that. 

My summer job is ending soon and all the money that was supposed to go to fixing up the house has gone to catching up the utility bills and that still isn't done.  I did buy 4 of the smoke alarms that I need, and two of the ceiling fans... altho I am second guessing that decision if I have to lower my price....

At the same time, the longer I am here, paying this high mortgage, the more money I feel like I am wasting.  I have leads on two apartments, so if things work out with the timing, I'll be fine.  I guess I should start checking on that and see what I can do.

Susie wants me to come out and stay with her as soon as I am free and with Bob getting worse by the day, I am sure she is going to need the support.  I haven't really made the decision yet.  I have an urge to go west  before I go east, but we'll see what happens

All I know right now is that after the best month ever, the slow August is depressing me.  Each check from Rachel is smaller than the last and I only have two outstanding orders on my board.  At least my students each week give me living money, but after that, I'll be dead in the water, so to speak.

I need this house to sell, Dan to leave and life to move on so I can heal and become whole and face a brighter future than the one I have in front of me right now.  I know it can be done

So mote it be

Respect is earned
Honesty is appreciated
Love is gained
And loyalty is returned