Sunday, January 27, 2013

And so we almost move on

This week's prompts asks, of course, the opposite question of last week...What would you like everyone to know about you, and why?

I look at this question the same way that I looked at last week's question.   Part of that depends on who "everyone" is, and then, I don't have secrets and so anyone who would like to get to know me has that ability.

What would I like everyone to know about me?  
That I have a strong core of values that is unshakable.  That is not something I developed when I was young and yet is something I encourage everyone to think about for their lives.

That I am open minded, open hearted, generous and caring.  I work hard and I enjoy being in the company of fun intelligent people.

Like my daddy, I would give what ever it took to make another's life complete.  If you are lacking, I am likely to open my doors for you.  And I have done this several times. 

I think that I would like people to know that more than anything in the world, I desire strong community, friendship, social outlets and creative undertakings to complete my life. 

It matters not what you do for a living, I want to know what you ache for

Monday, January 21, 2013

Memories

... are funny things.  How at such a moment, this clear memory of your childhood enters your head, unexpected and unwarranted, and yet there it is. 

I think best of course I remember watching the movies of my sister and I, dressed up in old lace petticoats, dancing to who knows what, on the patio of the house in Fort Collins.

That really is the first house that I actually remember.  Although there were movies that showed some of the earlier houses, I actually can feel myself in that house.  I can remember the feel of the sun as I played on the swing set.  I more or less remember my father putting up the fence, and when we poured the cement for the patio.  I do remember the shelving in the lower level, that my sister and I used for our Barbie houses, and the feel of each of the rooms in that house. 

I think that is my favorite house that we lived in as a family, and when I Google mapped it, I was quite surprised at the changes in how the house looks now compared to when we left it in the late '60's. 

Time does that to us tho.  Somehow the last thing that we saw is how we expect things to be, and they are not at all like that now.  The Silver Maple has grown into a huge tree, the neighborhood has aged, and expanded.  Changes not only in how we perceive things, but how they were.  Young eyes are rarely as accurate as we think they are.

Which brings me someone to the present.  Perception, as it is, not perhaps as accurate as we think it would be.  We look from the inside out, not seeing the whole picture.  It is always much easier to see the flaws in the world around us than it is to see the flaws in the world inside us.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

What Would You Prefer That No One Know About You...

.... and why.

I'm only on week three and I'm already tired of the "introduction" writing exercises.  I'm not sure that there is anything so secret that I'd prefer that no one know it about me.  I tend to be a pretty open person, and if you hang around me long enough, you are sure to find out most of my secrets.  Any thing you don't know about me, you can learn by watching me. 

I'm really not sure that there is anything I'd like to hide.  I find no reason to hide anything.  There are no failures that I am ashamed of, I've gotten back up every time I've fallen and I plan on that being true in the future. 

I am a care giver, and feel best when I am both wanted and needed.  I've learned that over the years, and knowing that, my art has to take a second place.  I am learning to be my own caregiver, which for me is harder than it should be, but it is what is in my life right now.  There is no one in need of the services that I do have to offer, and so my art and sewing skills see me through as much as possible. 

No deep secrets.  A few longings.  Even a couple of dreams left.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

This week we are talking about the differences between introducing ourselves to an informal group and introducing ourselves to a business group.  It has been so long since I had the occasion to introduce myself to any one, that I am not sure how I would do that, or how it would be different or have changed
The prompt continues, asking me if I make myself a little better than I actually am, and that one is easy to answer.  Yes, I do.  I keep reaching, and if i settle for just where I am, instead of where I would like to be.  I think by moving my "business" up a notch, it gives me something to reach for and therefore a reason to grow into my shoes, so to speak.
This type of goal setting has been good for me.  I have 5 orders on my board and new student starting.  I have inquiries almost daily right now and am working very hard at marketing more often, moving my ads up on craiglist as often as I can
I've secured a small loan that may allow me some significant changes, coupled with the gifts Heidi sent I know that this is going to be my year of change.  Life is on the move and I intend to keep it that way.
I have plans of finding a SCORE mentor and getting my business moving in the right direction finally, learning how to use the resources that are available to me and getting myself independant of needing anyone. 
How do I introduce myself?   As a woman in motion, going only forward.  No more stepping back to watch the parade.