Monday, November 26, 2012

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I die
And know that I meant something in, somebody's life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be

I will leave my mark so everyone will know

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I just want them to know
That I gave my all, did my best
Brought someone to hapiness
Left this world a little better just because

I was here

I was here
I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here x2

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Just Day by Day

I haven't written since I got home from my sister's house in October.  I guess there has been not a lot remarkable going on.  Just a few highlights and mostly day to day stuff.  I am back to the cycle of cleaning, decluttering, rearranging, throwing out, listing on free cycle, sewing, knitting, reading.... it is all just as it was, just as it should be
I really enjoy my house as it is.  Things are looking okay.  There is always much work to be done and in a house of this age and size, there always will be.  I am looking forward to moving, but I know the heartache of leaving here is going to be deep and unrecoverable.  There have just been so many things, people and items, that I have lost over the last few years that I feel like I can't risk any more. 
But I do have to move on.  I need the financial freedom, such as it is, that selling this house will give me.  I need to find a place that is only mine and find out who that person is that is trying to come out of the person that I am now.
And so for now, I clean, declutter, move furniture.... bringing the file cabinet to the office was an amazing choice that I didn't count on.  I really just wanted to expand my filing system and instead I actually created an office.  Moving that horrible beast up the stairs and then arguing with the drawers for over an hour, but poof, there it is.  A room that was questionable is now fully an office and with three empty drawers to play with, I can file notes on anything and everything that I want to, all in one place. 
In doing this and moving some things in the sitting room, I was able to get rid of a lamp and a small table.  Actually two tables went out this week, and boxes ready for good will, things that were never claimed and have no future home here.
It feels really good, every time I complete a task of organization.  I know that someday I will finally be done, but for now, this is what gets me up in the morning and keeps me moving through the days.  The beast of clutter will be conquered!